Can I do this? This is the question that has been going through my head for weeks now but is louder in my last few days as a school librarian.
For over ten years, I have been a teacher librarian and have loved my job. I love the students, working with the staff and all the many different aspects of the job.
I have to admit that it has only been in the last 4 years that I feel like I know what I am doing. That I may actually be good at what I do. That I am not questioning every decision I make. I could be happy doing this job for a long time.
But tonight as I sit here I wonder why am I leaving? Am I making the correct decision? Will I be happy as an administrator? Will I really be able to have the impact that I want? Will I miss the students? Am I up for the many new challenges ahead of me? Will I make friends? Will they get my weird sense of humor? Am I in over my head?
These are the questions we all ask ourself during a transition to something new. The thing is we don't really talk about these fears. I think we should. We need to admit that we are fearful.
I love this quote "Recognizing and admitting fear is the first step to overcoming and neutralizing it."
Let's hope by putting my fears out there I can overcome them.
Any advice and suggestions are very welcome.
Elissa Malespina is the Middle School Teacher Librarian in Somerville and a Presenter, Author and much more. The views are my own. Find my full resume above.